| the way zack investigates! ;) |
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well zenna got offline and i decided to fuck with her friends again because she left AIM on. then i met mr. benjamin joel. he's a 23 year old pervert who tries to rape little girls. so i fucked with him, and won =) i kick ass. she was in mid conversation when she left, so i continue where she left off ;) hahahahah im such a dick
Bennerman13: hey you
Fallin down x: heyy
Bennerman13: how are you tonight?
Bennerman13: do you like cuddling?
Fallin down x: yeah
Bennerman13: like, on a couch while watching a movie?
Fallin down x: yeah
Bennerman13: ok, that is good to know :-) so what are you up to?
Fallin down x: on the phone with my cousin Ashlyn who lives in buffalo
Bennerman13: did you have a good day today?
Fallin down x: yeah
Bennerman13: ok...lets try this...did you think about me at all today?? lol
Fallin down x: no not really sorry
Bennerman13: lol....its ok, maybe one of these days you will
Fallin down x: maybe
Bennerman13: hope i didn't frighten you last night
Fallin down x: oh its okay
Bennerman13: but i do like you
Fallin down x: oh for real
Bennerman13: yeah i do, for real
Bennerman13: does that scare you?
Fallin down x: no
Bennerman13: do you like it?
Fallin down x: i dunno
Bennerman13: lol....i like cuddling too...hehe
Fallin down x: lol
Bennerman13: so whats on your mind?
Fallin down x: lol nothong you?
Fallin down x: nothing*
Bennerman13: not much
Bennerman13: hmm...wanna talk about...your growing?
Bennerman13: think you'll get any taller?? lol
Bennerman13: are you there?
Bennerman13: hello?? *hug*&
Fallin down x: hey
Fallin down x: how u spell ur name
Bennerman13: ben
Bennerman13: why?
Fallin down x: nothing much
Bennerman13: benjamin joel
Fallin down x: whens ur birday
Fallin down x: firt
Fallin down x: ***
Fallin down x: birt*
Bennerman13: lol
Bennerman13: march 5
Fallin down x: what year
Fallin down x: ;-)
Bennerman13: 82
Fallin down x: how old are you mister?
Bennerman13: hehe, i'm 23
Fallin down x: youre crazy bro
Fallin down x: you wanna fuck me?
Bennerman13: i didn't say that
Fallin down x: u know u want to ;-)
Bennerman13: lol
Bennerman13: i said i like you
Fallin down x: really?
Fallin down x: aww <3333333
Fallin down x: did you know u were 8 when i was born? <3
Bennerman13: lol, better than being 18 when you were born
Fallin down x: yeah
Fallin down x: but like.. thats liek me having butt sex with a 7 year old boy
Fallin down x: would you have done that when you were 15?
Fallin down x: youre kinda trippy
Bennerman13: lol
Fallin down x: :-P
Bennerman13: thats what i mean, i wasnt wanting you to think i'm weird
Fallin down x: can i ask you a personal question?
Bennerman13: sure
Fallin down x: did you get picked on in highschool? like.. were u ever made fun of repeatedly?
Bennerman13: actually no....umm..i was pretty much a jock
Fallin down x: so you were a jock? <333
Fallin down x: did you get with a lot of hot chicks?
Fallin down x: ;-);-)
Bennerman13: yeah, a football player, pretty goo actually
Bennerman13: *good*
Fallin down x: can send me a good pic of you?
Bennerman13: like what?
Fallin down x: naked?
Fallin down x: i wanna see your sexy buff body
Bennerman13: lol
Fallin down x: :-D
Fallin down x: please?!
Bennerman13: have you seen my new pic on myspace?
Fallin down x: not yet
Fallin down x: can i please see your pic?
Fallin down x: naked?
Fallin down x: for me?
Fallin down x: youll send it if you really like me
Bennerman13: is this zenna? for real
Fallin down x: :-)
Fallin down x: duhH!
Bennerman13: ok, so whats going on then?
Bennerman13: ??
Fallin down x: u there?
Bennerman13: yeah i'm here
Bennerman13: so tell me really whats going on here then
Fallin down x: you wanan cuddle with me
Fallin down x: thats hot<3
Bennerman13: you are acting a lot different tonight
Fallin down x: i drank some beeeeeer
Bennerman13: how tall are you?
Fallin down x: 5'1"
Bennerman13: how much do you weigh?
Fallin down x: id ont knwo id ont weigh myself lol <3
Bennerman13: do you think you're like...bigger?
Fallin down x: :-*
Fallin down x: no way
Fallin down x: im hot as hell
Fallin down x: did you ever see mean girls?
Fallin down x: you know gretchen
Fallin down x: i have the same stomach as her
Fallin down x: everyone tells me when we watch it
Fallin down x: :-D
Fallin down x: O:-)
Bennerman13: and you think your boobs are growing more
Fallin down x: theyre huge
Fallin down x: im like almost a d
Fallin down x: and my buzzy cute
Bennerman13: and you want them to get bigger
Fallin down x: yeah
Fallin down x: im taking pills that make them enourmous
Fallin down x: \:-!
Bennerman13: what pills?
Fallin down x: its called dynastic
Bennerman13: how big do you want them to get?
Fallin down x: how big should i make them
Fallin down x: i want like, bigger than a d
Fallin down x: double?
Bennerman13: like...dd? or ddd?
Fallin down x: ddd
Bennerman13: ee
Fallin down x: close
Fallin down x: but no cigar!
Bennerman13: why not?
Fallin down x: should i make themt hat big
Fallin down x: so u can sleep on them likepillows? :-D
Bennerman13: yeah, or bigger even
Fallin down x: thats what im sayin
Fallin down x: then like, if theyre too big, ill fucking cut them off
Fallin down x: like, who cares?
Fallin down x: my mom like told me i cant]
Fallin down x: but who cares?
Fallin down x: right?
Bennerman13: nah, don't cut them off...then you'll just have to play with them all the time....i care
Fallin down x: how big should i stretch my nipples?
Bennerman13: how big are they now?
Fallin down x: like a big
Fallin down x: D
Bennerman13: i mean your nipples
Fallin down x: like as big as a compact
Bennerman13: mmm..how wide do you want them?
Fallin down x: like a cd
Bennerman13: mmmmmm....any bigger?
Fallin down x: should i?
Bennerman13: yeah baby, make them as big as you can
Fallin down x: do u wanna lick my buzzyhole?
Bennerman13: i wanna lick your nipples
Fallin down x: youre fucking gross
Fallin down x: mr. benjmin joel
Bennerman13: lol
Fallin down x: this is zennas father
Fallin down x: you better hope youre not on AOL because imr eporting this conversation to the police
Bennerman13: are you serious?
Fallin down x: i am very serious
Fallin down x: i am looking at your myspace account right now, on the phone witht he police
Fallin down x: giving them all your information
Fallin down x: theyre going to look at friends pages for lcue
Bennerman13: ok...fine
Fallin down x: look at conversations, see where they live
Fallin down x: who you talk to
Bennerman13: hey, listen
Fallin down x: then were going to investiagte and find your ass
Fallin down x: i have a lot of money boy
Fallin down x: i will do whatever i can to have you in trouble
Bennerman13: alright man, you win ok
Fallin down x: i know i do
Bennerman13: i'm done
Fallin down x: its too late
Fallin down x: i hope youd ont talk to any other little girls mr. jock
Fallin down x: because we will find there accounts and read the conversations through
Fallin down x: and investigate where they live etc
Fallin down x: ;-)
Bennerman13: well, hey man, i apologize for all this, probably doesn't matter to you much, but i see your point with it all, i don't think its a good situation and i do apologize for it all, i won't be trying to talk with zenna anymore at all....you are right about protecting her...i hope you have a good night, take care sir
Fallin down x: good luck
Bennerman13: thanks, you too :-) have a good night
Bennerman13: i will say this, i am realizing big time how stupid this was of me, i've never done this before and i never will be doing it again...you really have showed me my errors...so thanks for that :-)
Fallin down x: its alright mr. joel. you fill find out the consequences soon. then ill decide whether i press charges or not
Bennerman13: ok, that will be up to you then...have you got other guys for the same thing with her yet?
Fallin down x: actually, yes. one from central new jersey, who actually spoke to me, drove to my house, to find the police
Bennerman13: oh wow...so that went pretty far then, as far as what he did
Fallin down x: yup. and that night i vowed to protect my baby and i will
Fallin down x: have a good night mr. joel. ims ure you will hearing from me soon
Bennerman13: i was just going to say sir, that...just trying to be helpful so that other guys don't screw up the same way...it might be good to keep an eye on the kind of pictures that zenna has been posting
Fallin down x: what are they?
Bennerman13: pretty revealing, she has posted a full body shot of herself in her underwear, and one close up shot of her butt and her breasts with no bra on...its kind of sending the wrong message on her end
Fallin down x: i had no idea
Fallin down x: i will have a talk with her
Fallin down x: goodbye
Bennerman13: can you give me a minute sir?
Fallin down x: im tired kid
Bennerman13: i am too, i have to work at 5 am, but i'm staying up to talk this over with you because i think i deserve a 2nd shot at this
Bennerman13: i will say this, up until tonight, zenna and i had never spoken about anything sexual at all
Fallin down x: the deer has been shot
Fallin down x: he's dead
Fallin down x: and im bring him home for dinner
Bennerman13: i did say that "you" were acting much different
Fallin down x: but "you" are 23 and she is 15
Fallin down x: and regardless you shouldnt have spoken to her that day
Bennerman13: yes, and i agree that was stupid on my part to fall for it all, cuz it was totally unlike how she usually talks to me
Fallin down x: cani ask ya something
Bennerman13: sure
Fallin down x: :-)
Fallin down x: are you scared?
Bennerman13: well, yeah i am, i'm worried about this, and i think its all pretty much a dumb mistake
Fallin down x: on whos part?
Fallin down x: mine for not ebing zenna?
Bennerman13: no, mine for talking to a girl in that way, knowing that she is younger
Fallin down x: did you want to molest her?
Bennerman13: oh God no
Fallin down x: Bennerman13: hey you
Fallin down x: heyy
Bennerman13: how are you tonight?
Bennerman13: do you like cuddling?
Fallin down x: i believe that you knew you were in control of the situation, and were leading up to the point of sexual pleaser mr. joel
Bennerman13: well, talking about it and doing it are far different things, and in reality, i would never even want to meet zenna at all, and actually i do like cuddling, almost more even than anything sexual
Fallin down x: how do i know u wernt going to make the attempt to meet her in a future conversation
Fallin down x: how do i know youre not lieing to save your ass?
Fallin down x: how d i know you havent said anything of it before?
Fallin down x: zenna will tell me the truth
Fallin down x: she always does
Bennerman13: well sir, you don't know...all i can say, is that i swear on my Mother's grave that i would never have done that
Fallin down x: she likes getting guys in trouble
Fallin down x: if you answer this question truthfully i will consider your honesty
Bennerman13: ok
Fallin down x: have you ever gotten with a guy before?
Bennerman13: what do you mean?
Fallin down x: sexually?
Bennerman13: no sir, i never have
Fallin down x: lol
Fallin down x: anyway
Fallin down x: iwas just messing with u about that
Fallin down x: lmao
Bennerman13: about the guy thing?
Fallin down x: :-D
Fallin down x: yeah
Bennerman13: i was wondering
Bennerman13: lol
Fallin down x: i will take your honesty into consideration. i will talkt ot he police, and i will have zenna fix her webpage
Bennerman13: maybe we could work something out
Bennerman13: and it could save us both a lot of headache
Fallin down x: i didnt mean i was gonna talk to the police and get you in trouble
Fallin down x: iwas gonna tellt hem i may drop the case
Fallin down x: ya cunt
Bennerman13: all i mean is this...you did bust me on talking to her when i shouldn't have been....it was kind of entrapment but still, i messed up, and i really regret it....but..i did inform you about her webpage, which could be leading other guys, much worse guys than me to do the same thing...so if she corrects her webpage that will save you a lot of problems
Bennerman13: thats all
Fallin down x: did you know youre the same age as britney spears
Fallin down x: are you saing that youre really bad but theres worse?
Bennerman13: no i'm not
Fallin down x: or did you mean youre just a friendly online myspace observer that likes to chat online?
Bennerman13: i'm just saying that in reality, i'm not a bad guy, i'm actually a pretty good guy, i know that there are a lot of perverts and people that are much worse that would really do things that would be bad...by me letting you know about her page, that could be saving you both from all of those problems
Fallin down x: you keep saying your statement wrong. "there are a lot of perverts and people that are much worse" are you saing YOURE a pervet but there are worse ones out there?
Bennerman13: lol...no no...i'm just saying that there are bad people out there, that would do things a lot worse than the mistake i made tonight by talking to you...people that would actually try to meet up with her and do those things, thats all i'm saying
Fallin down x: i hear ya kid
Fallin down x: alright
Fallin down x: ill take what youve said into consideration
Fallin down x: ill forgive you and drop the charges
Fallin down x: ill take the pics off her myspace website
Fallin down x: and you can go back to what you were doing
Bennerman13: thank you sir, i think you're doing the right thing here
Bennerman13: for everyone, i promise i won't make the same mistake again
Bennerman13: thanks for keeping me in line
Fallin down x: no problem
Fallin down x: can you do me one more favor?
Bennerman13: sure
Fallin down x: can you write me a really long apology, thats like an enourmouse paragraph?
Bennerman13: umm, yeah i suppose...may i ask why?
Fallin down x: it would make me feel better baout the situationa nd i wont change my mind in the morning just to be a dick
Fallin down x: ;-)
Bennerman13: ok, just on here?
Fallin down x: yeah
Fallin down x: >:o OKAY?!?!?!
Fallin down x: >:o
Fallin down x: >:o
Fallin down x: >:o
Fallin down x: !!!
Fallin down x: =-O
Bennerman13: alright sir....i sincerely apologize for my mistake, i am human and have proven my sins, I have learned a very important lesson tonight that will be with me for the rest of my life, that i will never forget how close i came to ruining my future for myself. I am a better person because of living and learning and i sincerely thank you for being able to teach that lesson to me
Fallin down x: youre very welcome mr. joel. have a good night
Bennerman13: thanks, you too sir, i never caught your name
Fallin down x: Kevin
Bennerman13: it was nice meeting you Kevin :-) you take care, i really wish you luck with anything that might come up in the future, hopefully there won't be any other problems like this for you and zenna
Fallin down x: that was very kind of you, goodnight. thank you very much
Bennerman13: you too, take care.....oh..and by the way, its really cool that you are so close with your daughter, i'm actually going to see my father tomorrow that i really haven't been close with all my life, just now trying to get caught up on all the time we've lost together, so i really think its cool that you are so thoughtful about her, she is lucky to have a guy like that as a dad
Fallin down x: :-)
Fallin down x: and some advice, dont even bring this up to anyone. id ont want you to ever feel embarassed.
Fallin down x: friends liek ot talk about a lot of bullshit about each other these days
Bennerman13: true...real friends would probably stick with each other though, at least from my experiences
Fallin down x: what have you expierienced?
Fallin down x: youd ont have to tell me, ill have it looked up
Fallin down x: just for my curiosity
Bennerman13: well, i have a lot of people i know and talk to and like...but only a select handful that i would truly consider friends, i think a friend is somebody that would lay their life on the line for you, and back you up no matter what happens...i don't think i would do that, or that a lot of the people i know would do that for me....but i would do it for my friends
Fallin down x: i understand. thats very good of you as a person. that shows you have a lot of maturity. im convinced that youre a good guy, and truly ment what you said to me in apology
Bennerman13: i really did, i think i have had a pretty tough life actually and had to learn a lot of important lessons in life far before people should have to, but, adversity builds character ya know
Fallin down x: yes it does.
Fallin down x: :-)
Fallin down x: im off to bed, goodnight
Fallin down x: bye
Bennerman13: take care kevin, have a good night
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| i love merdith<3 |
[16 Aug 2005|05:43pm] |
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Nirvana87 [5:32 PM]: travis <333
Zack Please [5:32 PM]: lol did u meet him before?
Nirvana87 [5:33 PM]: i sure did
Nirvana87 [5:33 PM]: i like white boys who are chocolate on the inside
Zack Please [5:34 PM]: lmao
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| im flattered =D |
[15 Aug 2005|05:49pm] |
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Zack Please [5:44 PM]: do u think im hot?
girlwiththeluv [5:44 PM]: sure...
girlwiththeluv [5:45 PM]: who dont think you are hot?
Zack Please [5:45 PM]: what do u mean?
girlwiththeluv [5:45 PM]: who doesnt think you are hot ?
Zack Please [5:45 PM]: i dont know, who?
girlwiththeluv [5:46 PM]: idk...i think everyone does
Zack Please [5:48 PM]: :-D
Zack Please [5:48 PM]: ya really think so?
girlwiththeluv [5:48 PM]: yeah
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| its zacks birthday!! =D |
[04 Aug 2005|03:48pm] |
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its my BIRTHDAY today! i hot the big 18!!
Dear Zack,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, August 4:
Leave the house looking your best. After all, you don't want to disappoint your fans and the photographers who are waiting to catch a glimpse of you. Enjoy your warm moment in the spotlight!
August 4th in History
This Day in History > August 4th
August 4th in History
1914: Britain declares war on Germany
1971: The US launches first satellite into lunar orbit from a manned spacecraft
1983: Italy elects first socialist prime minister since 1946
[more]
- The United States purchased the Virgin Islands, 1916
- During WWII, Gestapo captured Anne Frank, her family and others, in Holland, 1944
- A world air speed record of 2196 mph was set by the X-15 experimental U.S. rocket plane, piloted by Joseph A. Walker, a civilian test pilot, 1960.
- The United States Department of Energy was created, 1977
August 4th birthdays
1792: Percy Shelley, English poet
1900: Queen Elizabeth, British Queen Mother
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| well.. i guess my smiley doesnt like to be ignored. RIP smiley.. |
[17 Jul 2005|02:21am] |
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Zack Please [2:16 AM]: hey
Zack Please [2:18 AM]: you there?
Zack Please [2:18 AM]: :-!
Zack Please [2:19 AM]: !!!
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: =-O
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ...
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: :-(
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ...
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ...
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: :-\
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ...
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ?
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: !!!
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: :'(
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: :'(
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ..
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ..!
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: !!
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ..
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ..
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: ..
Zack Please [2:20 AM]: :-X
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| i'll beat you at your own game nigga |
[08 Jul 2005|11:15pm] |
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HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:11 PM]: WHOS THIS
Zack Please [11:11 PM]: howd you get my screen name?
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:11 PM]: IDK
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:11 PM]: WHOS THIS
Zack Please [11:11 PM]: so then why are you asking who i am?
Zack Please [11:11 PM]: you obviously found my screen name from some where
Zack Please [11:11 PM]: so you tell me
Zack Please [11:11 PM]: who am i?
Zack Please [11:12 PM]: why do you have my screen name?
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:12 PM]: I DONT FUCKIN KNO
Zack Please [11:12 PM]: so then why was it on your buddy list
Zack Please [11:12 PM]: i couldnt have done it
Zack Please [11:12 PM]: it must have been you
Zack Please [11:13 PM]: are you going to answer me?
Zack Please [11:13 PM]: how did you get my screen name?!
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:13 PM]: UMM LET ME SEE
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:13 PM]: UMM NO
Zack Please [11:13 PM]: :-!
Zack Please [11:13 PM]: TELL ME!!!
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:13 PM]: HELL NO
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:13 PM]: BYE
Zack Please [11:13 PM]: loser
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:14 PM]: FUCK BAG
Zack Please [11:14 PM]: pussy
Zack Please [11:14 PM]: thats why you IMed me and asked who i was
HoTrOxYcHiCk900 [11:14 PM]: DICK
Zack Please [11:14 PM]: niice
Zack Please [11:14 PM]: :-D
Zack Please [11:14 PM]: peace
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| weird. |
[02 Jul 2005|12:52pm] |
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dear grace,
okay. listen, im just gonna be truthful.
im not a weird kid. im not a loser. i didnt get made fun of growing up. im not ugly. i dont have bad taste in clothes. i dont get randomly depressed and i know how to socialize.
i am sick and fucking tired of associating with LOSERS! i am NOT a loser.
dont you agree that its just a little weird when you have a bunch of friends over and one of your friends decides to be all emo and chill in the other room AWAY from everyone else? isnt it just strange when your partying and your friend is being all anti social for no reason? being all weird and emo for no reason. leaving and hiding in their car, or just chilling with your little sister.
fuck that shit. im sick of being embarassed when i go to the mall. when i hit up a party, when i wanna see my friends.
i hate losers.
love always,
zack
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dear grace,
well i got pretty much everything back to happiness. all my clothes are finaly cleaned as well as my bed comforter et cetera. and now its finaly summer!!
finaly time to hang out with whoever the fuck i want instead of cramming it into one weekend.
thank god =)
love always,
zack
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[21 Jun 2005|11:29am] |
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dear grace,
this is it. my last day of being a student in highschool for the rest of my life.
wish me luck grace
love always,
zack
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| i need... ME! |
[21 Jun 2005|10:32am] |
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dear grace,
i cant take it anymore. i have no clean shirts, sweat shirts, pants, shorts, socks, underwear. my comforter's nasty, my pillow cases are dirty, im broke, my rooms a disaster, everythings lost, and to top it off, after today, i aint no kid no more.
so! im gonna have to get my act together. first off im gonna have to clean my room. thats an essential. then im gonna have my mom clean the rest of my clothes, as well as my pillow cases and comforter.
since i have no washer im gonna have to wear my old shirts for bed and my new shirts for the day and thats it. im gonna have to sleep with a different blanket as its too hot to use my current one anyway, and use different pillows so i can keep the ones i like nice for when i have people over.
im not getting a job. fuck that. im just gonna have to save my money instead of blowing it in one shot.
and hopefully after all that everything will be back in order and i can enjoy my easy care free life again. i have faith =)
love always,
zack
p.s. i thought i wanted a relationship, but i have way to many obligations to complete unfortunatly. i guess ill just have to wait until after vacation to the dominican republic. whatever =)
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| desert treats. by jessica simpson ;) ;) |
[20 Jun 2005|03:55pm] |
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Zack Please [3:53 PM]: guess what
I Snort Catnipp [3:53 PM]: what?
Zack Please [3:53 PM]: jessica simpson makes lotion that u can eat
Zack Please [3:53 PM]: so im gonna put it on my penis
I Snort Catnipp [3:53 PM]: lol i know.
Zack Please [3:53 PM]: ]your gonna masturbate me with it
Zack Please [3:53 PM]: and then eat my cock when were finished!
Zack Please [3:53 PM]: =D
I Snort Catnipp [3:53 PM]: lol.
I Snort Catnipp [3:53 PM]: sounds like a plan, zack.
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| happy fathers day |
[19 Jun 2005|08:01pm] |
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dear grace,
for some reason i completly forgot today was fathers day until about 2am last night. i was wondering why everyone couldnt hang out on sunday..
hmm..
?
wait!
maybe its because i dont have a father!
love always,
zack
p.s. its pretty normal to me to not have a father. it feels like youre not even supposed to have one. less rules! =D
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| OH MY GOD!! |
[17 Jun 2005|06:28pm] |
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dear grace,
since john doesnt like to listen to a god damn word i say, and always likes to misconcept what i have to say, and change it into the complete opposite of how i intended it to come out. i decided to have a little fun with the situation =)
i never really found humor in our conversations until i realized it was just completly pointless to get through to the kids. he's too stubborn and refuses to hear me out. whatever ;)
LOst SuRf c0 [12:30 AM]: you really put me in a horrible mood
Zack Please [12:30 AM]: oh my god
LOst SuRf c0 [12:31 AM]: oh im so honored to have ruined your feeligns for soemthing
LOst SuRf c0 [12:31 AM]: cuz im such a horrible person
Zack Please [12:31 AM]: OH MY GOD!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:31 AM]: im such a selfish pessimistic angry person
Zack Please [12:31 AM]: OH MY GOD!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:31 AM]: oh my god zack im terribly sorry
Zack Please [12:31 AM]: OH MY GOD!!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:31 AM]: ?
Zack Please [12:31 AM]: OH MY GOD!!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: jesus appear at your widnow?
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: oh my gawwwwwwwd
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: ugh now youre doign it to piss me off with the gay accent typing
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: OH
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: MY
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: GAWWWWWD
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: wtf are you saying that for
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: see you love to piss me off
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: why?
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: OH MY GAWD
LOst SuRf c0 [12:32 AM]: i dont like pissing you off i just hate that you hate me
Zack Please [12:32 AM]: oh my god..
LOst SuRf c0 [12:33 AM]: you do hate me dont deny it zack you secretly hate me i know
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: shut up
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: no i dont
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: i actually feel bad about our coversations..
LOst SuRf c0 [12:33 AM]: and anyone who hates me i instantly hate back
LOst SuRf c0 [12:33 AM]: YES YOU DO
LOst SuRf c0 [12:33 AM]: OR ALTEAST SRTONGLY DISLIKE ME
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: but since u think i have no heart
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: and im this cold mean cunt
Zack Please [12:33 AM]: i cant convince u otherwise
LOst SuRf c0 [12:34 AM]: youll never convince me of anything
Zack Please [12:34 AM]: oh my god!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:34 AM]: regardless of what you think i should think or do or what you believe. like you siad im my own person and should care what people think im not gonna let you convince me of antyhing
Zack Please [12:34 AM]: OH MY GOD!!!!!
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: no u shouldnt care its gonna get u no where in life
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: if u dont care, u have a care-free and un-stressful life
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: because u live for you and youre life
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: and not let anyone else effect you
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: OH MY GOD!! OH NO!
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: i just gave you advice!
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: now go and think the complete opposite! cause im zack, and you refuse to listen to anything i have to say!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:35 AM]: OH MY GAAAAWDD! LIKE OMG IM ZACK AND IM AN ASS TO JOHN CUZ HE LIVES ON A LITTLE GAY ISLAND AND HES SUCH A DEPRESSED PESSIMISTIC LOSER HIS FRIENDS ALL HATE HIM HIS PARNETS SECRETLY WANT TO MAKE HIS LIFE MISREABLE AND HE JUST CANT KEEP A RELTIONSHIP BECAUSE HE LOST THE ABILITY TO LOVE AND IS AFRAID TO LET IT GET TO HIM I DONT UNDERSTAND JOHN AT ALL BECAUSE I JUST ASSUME THINGS
Zack Please [12:35 AM]: OH MY GOD!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:36 AM]: OH MAH GAWD
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: i dont assume anything
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: i just read what u have to say
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: and listen to what u have to speak
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: and make judgement by that
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: sounds fair, right?
LOst SuRf c0 [12:36 AM]: what?
Zack Please [12:36 AM]: OH MY GOD!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:37 AM]: lol i love how you get mad at my misunderstanding
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: OH MY GOD!!!!!!!
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: lol mad
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: nah
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: im just being straightforward
LOst SuRf c0 [12:37 AM]: ugh twehre you go again
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: ofcourse im gonna explaine myself
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: human nature i guess
LOst SuRf c0 [12:37 AM]: now youre tryign to make me sound stupid
Zack Please [12:37 AM]: OH MY GOD!!!!
LOst SuRf c0 [12:39 AM]: maybe i am overexaggerating, beign mean, judgin you for nothgin thinkign opposite of wehast you really think and beign stupdi for carign what other peopel think but if so i sitll dont care
Zack Please [12:39 AM]: oh my god..
LOst SuRf c0 [12:39 AM]: i dont care
LOst SuRf c0 [12:39 AM]: that im an asshole
Zack Please [12:39 AM]: good riddance
Zack Please [12:39 AM]: youre boring.
LOst SuRf c0 [12:39 AM]: i always have been
Zack Please [12:39 AM]: what ever man
LOst SuRf c0 has been blocked at 12:39 AM
love always,
zack
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| brigantine. |
[08 Jun 2005|12:20am] |
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dear grace,
i think i just completly proved to myself why i think that brigantine people are INSANE! theyre all just fucking NUTS!
seriously, you say one thing and they just cant comprehend because theyve been so isolated on that island for so long. you never know when ones just gonna go INSANE and just CRACK! you can say something as ridculous as "you freak!" and they take it the COMPLETE wrong way and get all worked up about it.
damn grace, it would have been as if i fucking bombed off the west coast.
ahh, whatever. i gotta grab some food, a good movie, climb into bed and pass out. tomorrow's and brand new day, and im feelin the beach! i cant wait to see everyone!
love always,
zack
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| senior prom 2005 |
[06 Jun 2005|04:48pm] |
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dear grace,
prom was amazing. it started out with jess and i rebelling to be extra early, and us taking about 3 hours to get ready. it was all worth it in the end though.
i asked my aunt to trim my hair, and then cut it short if i wasnt happy with it. and ofcourse like i expected she took it upon herself to give me the latest haircut in. and it wasnt long anymore at all. the expression of jess' face gave it all away but after i was pretty happy with the out come.
jess went to prom as 'aunt donna marie' and looked beautiful. to be honest with you she was one of the most beautiful girls there. she looked amazing. the dress, the hair, the make-up, she looked wonderful.
being a few extra hour's late i arrived at mike's house to meet up with the limo party, and everyone was sorta pissed that i wasnt early. tough shit, i wanted to be prefect and to show up 'fashionably late' was necessary.
the prom itself was very chaotic. there wasnt much room between table's and id ont event hink anyone discovered the dance floor for about an hour after we all arrived. i saw a lot of people and everyone looked really nice.
i danced and partied a lot. got to dance with jess and julie at the same time, which was hot. the hot kid from gym class was right near me too =D god man! i was ecstatic! i had so much fun. it couldnt believe it ended when it did! i didnt want it to at all. it went as every dance went, i finaly started gettin int he mood to party and it was already pretty much over.
after prom, we visted ray, rosanna, roland etc. i was really happy to see them again! it was like 'key' to see them on such a wonderful night. unfortuantly jess got sick because we decided to go to wonderland, so i agreed to having her stay at rays until she felt better.
i ended up arriving at a hotel party with mike, sam, julie, bryan, jen, mike's brother and his girlfriend and a couple other cool kids. ill tell you this, mike is one of the nicest kids ive ever met. i dont know what it is, but i get such a positive vibe from him, and i can tell his presence makes everyone else in a good mood too.
julie looked so beautiful. i dont know what it was about her, but i couldnt help but look at her, because there was just something about her, that made her face just sparkle. i sound kinda dumb grace, but she's gonna be one beautiful lady when she gets older.
i loved bryan's pin-striped tuxedo and over-all i thought mine was pretty decent too. i didnt even pick it out =P.
jenny and meredith arrived at the hotel, and lets just say jennys not aloud to drink around me ever again. end of story.
a lot of insaneness happened. it just so happened to be right before jason and janel arrived. janel has a very keen way of making people feel better when theyre drunk and i appreciate her giving meredith a break. i ended up leaving the party around 5am.
jen and i slept at my house, after watching 'shaun of the dead'. i passed out from 6am until after 11pm. then passed out again, after finishing 'shaun of the dead' and slept from 2am until 6am. so added up thats about 21 hours of sleep ive been begging god to allow me to have.
if i had to rate prom night on a scale from 1 - 10 id give it a 9. only because it was very crowded and hectic inside, and someone decided to crash the hotel party a couple hours before i left. no biggie, i still had an awesome time!
love always,
zack
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| finaly! |
[02 Jun 2005|06:11pm] |
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dear grace,
i learned how to drive today. im happy =)
love always,
zack
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| nope.. |
[27 May 2005|01:58pm] |
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dear grace,
my mom has no faith in me..
love always,
zack
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| goin uphill |
[26 May 2005|11:47pm] |
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dear grace,
well everythings officialy going grand for me! =D i went to the doctor's the other day and got them to hand me over 10 dr's notes, so now im walking for graduation! and i dont have credit completion! i went to six flags on tuesday, and everythings smoothing over with just about all my friends.
finaly dude. i hate all this stupid bullshit between people.
just to let you know grace, im not on anyone's side. all that shit that happened sucks. yeah i feel sorry. but im on no one's side. ya wanna know why? CAUSE IT DIDNT HAPPEN TO ME! so why have people hate me, when i wasnt even invovled to begin with? it would just be a retarded thing for me to do to myself. summer's comming up, im graduating with my class. and i dont know. i cant even descrive that natural high i felt when i found out i was walking for graduation.
the only down fall is my bed room. you know when alice (from wonderland) goes into the white rabbit's house? and she eat's that cookie and then turns gigantic and cant even fit in the house anymore? WELL GUESS WHAT GRACE! I ATE THAT FUCKING COOKIE AND I CANT FIT IN MY OWN DAMN BEDROOM!!! ITS MICROSCOPIC! yeah, there's sex everywhere. plenty of hot people to wake up too. but when i cant even fit my foot in my bedroom, it doesnt even fucking matter.
the funniest book ever: confessions of an heiress. buy it dude, you'll laugh at all the bullshit ya read in there. and chaotic was the sex. im glad i didnt miss it. really good show.
i understand why britney married when she did. she was desperate. and if i was in the same position id damn well do the same thing. it used to sadden me that britney got married, got pregnant. avril turned prep. greenday decided to shit their music up just to make more money, when they didnt even give a fuck before. nicole stopped being paris' friend. lindsay lohan weigh's about 16 pounds and everything else.
but shit does happen for a reason. sorta like how i hate the fucking color black. it looks like shit when u wear too much of it. im not depressed and although im in love with the used, senses fail et cetera, im sick of people assuming im a death metal head.
the other day grace, im leaving gym and put on my cd player. keep in fucking mind its a little mermaid cd player. this girl says "what are ya listening too? head banging music?" ::as shes head banging:: ... like.. what the fuck? i was actually listening to britney spears asshole. yeah it may sound corny, but id rather listen to britney spears and be happy with myself, then listen to senses fail and want to slash my wrists up. its amazing music, but im not feelin it anymore. im not feelin the black, im not feelin the stupid gelly bracelete's, the corny band shirts.
i sit there and wear all these band shirts' when i choose to listen to britney spears over all of them! im so damn confused with my self lately. i dont know what i want my image to evolve into. im hopeing this is just a small phase and ill be zack again.. but untill then i really dont know.
love always,
zack
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| this is the closest thing i can find to describe "the seven" |
[22 May 2005|06:00pm] |
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courtesy of jess.
i am hyper. ok well jen picked me and julie up...and we drove around and went to bryans..sum shit. i talked to rosanna on the phone. then jen was like "lets go to Mcdonalds" so we all go there and jen is like "i have 6 $'s that means we can all get sumthing!" im like "no...u would need $7 and sum change...like 8 dollars..." shes like "jess..no...i have 6...its enuf ...UR ON DRUGS" and i get into this like..weird argument..then i turn around and count 1-nick 2-zack 3-bryan 4-julie 5-jen 6-me.........and iam like..."holy...shit...i cant stand this jen.." and i look at zack and im like "r u aware of wat is going on in my mind" and hes like "exactly aware"....I FUCKING THOUGHT ROSANNA WAS WITH US CUZ IM SO USED TO IT... it was so..empty? we had the VAN and EVERYTHING so we wouldny have been SQUEESHED it would have been..AMAZING! well we went to Wawa and the bum was there...and me and zack get out the car and we r like "BRYAN!!! COME ON BRYAN!! WE R LEAVING!!" and we run to the car and we're like "COME ON BRYAN" and he comes to the payphone...and watches us...and i roll down the window and i ask him a Q then i go "wats ur name" and he goes "Bob" and automatically i SCREAM "Bob Bob Bob!" then we leave and go to bryans. well bryan is on the couch behind me...the room is probably spinning in his eyes, cuz hes drunk..and high. julie nick and zack r in the other room, chilling...i d k wat. how many did you eat?
-jess-
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